| To anyone who cares |
[Nov. 6th, 2006|09:54 pm] |
My new journal is wolf_of_sorrows.
Its friends only so if you want to see it (which I guess most of you don't since I haven't got comments from any of you) you need to leave me a comment here so that I can add you. |
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| Interesting.... |
[Oct. 16th, 2006|02:43 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | MLK Library | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  broken | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Dragonforce ~ Starfire | ] |
its always interesting to see, after something dramatic and life altering has happened to you, how many of your friends really give a damn.
Now, before anyone rushes to the front to defend themselves, to those who I speak to exclusively online, you are excused from being in the loop, since -maybe- you had no idea, of cousrse I'm almost positive that a few mutual friends may have mentioned it at least in passing...
Now, for the rest of you. And yes you know who the fuck you are. Go choke on a fat one, you stupid fucking sons of a bitches that didn't give not a flying fuck. I almost fucking DIE and I don't even get a fucking VOICEMAIL, or a PHONECALL, or a fucking GET WELL CARD from you?! FUCK YOU, FUCK all of you. This will be my LAST public fucking entry because you worthless peices of SHIT don't deserve to eben begin to lay eyes on any part of me except my ASS as I walk away and leave you in the motherfucking dust.
And you want to know what is fucking sad?! DO YOU. That JOHN. JOHN of all motherfucking people was there for me once he found out. JOHN!!!! the biggest fucking looser peice of shit in the entire world. who is not only a looser, but also fucking homeless and jobless and dosen't even have two motherfucking pennies to rub together was fucking there for me. You should ALL be ashamed of yourselves and I hope you all contract some disgusting disease and rot to nothing as you lay in fucking AGONY.
You have NO idea how much I hate all of you. And if you don't see an entry by next week, then if I show up at midnight don't even LOOK at me or I will punch your lights out....
Fuck you all and have a miserable, empty life ^.^ |
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| Pft.... |
[Jun. 6th, 2006|03:56 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Jenn's school | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  fucking PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!! | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | the blood throbing in my head... | ] |
I don't even Know nwhy I bother... I guess from now on since I can't stop bitching about things that I'll just make my journal private.. so that I don't take up anyones friends list...
Not that anyone has time for me anymore.. now that i'm "always depressed and angry" now..
well you know what, fuck it, and fuck anyone who dosen't like it, and for all those people that I though were my friends (no this has nothing to do with Huskie, even though everyone keeps telling me that it does.. I think I know who i'm talking about, it is my fucking brain you know!) you can all kiss my fucking ass. I hope you burn in the rotten pile of garbage that your pathetic lives have become.. oh yeah... amd Cissy, I hope that Charlie gives you the gonorrhea that he picked up from the cheap whore when we were at the club last week. And Jackson, if you step one fucking foot into my house I will gut you like a pig and shove your large intestine down your throat, rip out your heart and shove it up your ass..
And don't try that "i'm really gonna leave this time" shit, because you know what, I don't need friends like you, and if you wanna whine about how you hate me, and I'm a bitch and all that other shit, good , go ahead, do it and fucking leave, just go to hell and make my life a lot fucking easier, that way I don't have to take care of your fucking kid AND mine. See if your fucking sister will give you the last few dollars out of her pocket like I do for you. Get a fucking job you loser. And Yeah, I might not have one but you know what? I'm still not fucking begging. At least i can hold my own.
So you all know what, i'm signing off, suck my dick, kiss my ass, and anything else I forgot... feel free to add anything you like, as long as it makes you GO THE FUCK AWAY!!!! |
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| Kind of sad... |
[May. 22nd, 2006|03:33 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  rejected | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Static - X ~ Cold | ] |
I dunno, its stupid really, I mean other people have lives..
But ya know.. I don't have many friends, and when it seems like I might loose, or may have lost a friend it really gets to me...
I mean, Huskie and I never really talked to much, only called each other like... twice maybe, but she was the only person that I could consider somewhat of a friend that lived close to me, or way fucking closer than anyone else I know anyway...
I guess I just tried to be to objective about it... it sucks when you're so desperate fo something that you just.. cling to it even though it dosen't really exist... so blind... so very..very.. blind.. and deaf... oh yeah.. and stupid.
Oh well, I have issues... duh... time to get over them and... say...
I GET TO GO TO OZZFEST AND SEE DRAGONFORCE!!!!!!!!!! *squeal* *scream* *die*
yes, I'm sad, yes I'm lonely, yes I need to put myself out there more and make friends.. but you know what.. going to Ozzfest with my own self is good enough...
Of course I'll be sad before... and afterward and wish I had had someone to share it with... like right now.. but you know what, I already know that once I get there I won't give a flying fuck who the hell likes me!!! (sorry guys i still love you !!!)
No other news really.. got to go out this weekend and see everyone with their SO's.... it sucked.. I got sad and stayed outside with the bouncers all night, even though thats what I usually do, but I mean.. I basically spent 20 minutes all together down in the acctual club, and I was there from 9:30 until 3am...
But anyway... I'm going to go because i dont want to get you guys down anymore... so I'm just going to sulk around on the net for awhile.. and then I'm going home... ciao... |
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| blah! |
[May. 3rd, 2006|12:04 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  so hyper and weird right now.. | ] |
So silly today... and my teacher hasn't been in all this week, so they mailed out my checks. God knows when I'll get them back.. I have no idea.. but hopefully I will soon, and them I will call you Kity. But right now I don't know when. oh Yeah, Konstantinos, call me back about that job, I still want it. I haven't talked to Dami yet but hopefully I will be able to this week.
Love you guys!!! BYE! |
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| My first Exam |
[May. 1st, 2006|10:08 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Job Program | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  I am so smart! S-M-R-T!!!*lol* | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | people talking in the BG | ] |
Well, as most of you may or may not know. I enrolled myself back into school. And today I submitted my first exam... and I got a 100% *bubbles with ooey-gooey pride* Yay me...
school where you don't have to see or talk to people is so great.... yay for home courses... they RAWK!!!!
anyway... I came to my job program today and guess what?.... the teacher isn't even here. So that means that I have to do independant job search again today. which sucks, but it also means that I don't have to come back until Wednsday. The ony thing that I'm dissapointed about is that I can't get my check today.
Usually we make ten bucks a day and they hold over your first check just like a job, so technically you're getting paid a week behind, and since I only had one makeup day last week I would have only been getting 10 bucks. But come to find out... my first week of class, I never signed my paper to release my check, which means not only do I get my check from easter week, but I also get he whole $50 from the first week. ^.^ Plus I got my other check today, which means that after I pay my phone bill I would still have had a good $2-something.
But its alright.. I'll figure out something...
AND!!!! I am ANGRY! I dropped my fucking cell in the TOILET!!!! while I was changing at the club :(
But its ok, I bullshitted my ass off and I don't have to pay a blind penny... but its still the point of having to transfer service over to my old cell until I get a new one... blah...
anyway.. I don't know what else to say... so I am going to flost around the net.. maybe get on a messenger or something... yeah.. ^.^ CIAO |
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| Job Program |
[Apr. 7th, 2006|12:50 pm] |
Been going to this job prgram for the past two weeks. This week I'm pissed because I was supposed to get my check but now all of a sudden they don't have them. So now I have to wait until Monday. But the problem is is that I have no way to get back home.
Apparently my mother decided to use my pass to get to work and didn't tell me. So I got stuck in the fucking METRO, this morning because I didn't have enough money to get out. I got to the stop on time but then I was in there for almost an hour and by then I was horribly late for my class, I finally found someone with a cell phone who works underground and tried to call my case worker so that he could tell my teacher that I would be late, but he told me that he didn't have time.
So, I finally got out of the METRO, an hour late, not knowing wether or not she was going to let me into class today, and ended up having a nervous breakdown and crying and sobbing infront of my teacher.
I've been so stressed.. with the program, and school, and running around after my son. Having to get up at 5:30 - 6:00 every morning... not getting to sleep until well after 1, sometimes even 2....
But I'm determined not to quit... yes.. yes I am, so now I have to call my sister or someone and ask them if they can come pick me up, or come bring me a little bit of money so that I can get home. And, I know already that noone will come and do it for me... so I'm going to end up having to walk home from all the way downtown...
I said something to my teacher and she was like "Its not that far."... so you know what I told her?.. "Good, then since its not that far, you can walk to my house and get some money from there and then walk back and give it to me so that I can catch the train home....
Anyway, time to make some calls... I will be back online on Monday, and probly every afternoon next week, because I like to get on after class and try to keep up with everything. No New pictures yet, I tried to upload a video of the baby, but this computer dosen't support the file so I didn't do it.
Anyway.. my blurb for today... going to search for some pictures now. C-ya! |
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[Mar. 3rd, 2006|12:56 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  cheers to temporary freedom!!! | ] |
http://www.myspace.com/Exodia_BlackPaw
looks like puke right now, but maybe when I get my new glasses and have a little free time it'll start to look decent... yeah right... free time... anyway ya'll haven't looked at my pics yet :( and I was so happy to finally have some *cries* TELL ME I'M PRETTY!!!!!!!!!!
heehee.. andway enough fpr the poopy saddness. I am free for now.. free from child and free from that bitch that poses as my mother .... but once again this is a very short entry.. lots of stuff happened .. no time to tell about it. blah... I AM going out Saturday night even if I have to cut off a finger and go to the HOSPITAL, at least it will be somewhere.... preferably Midnight though... it realy is a lots more fun than sitting in the ER with 9 fingers and an oozing stump.... maybe...
Just Kidding ^.^ so hopefully you all will see me out there... and maybe I wont fall asleep at a table in a corner somewhere.. and maybe I will have fun... but none of that matters... because even if I do or don't do all those things.... I w i l l b e f r e e
so.. bye bye now!! love you all, LOOK AT MY PICS AND TELL ME I'M PRETTY!!!!!!!!
and I will try and get back to a computer either before or on Wednsday... I won't be blind wednsday... glasses come back from lab... yay... |
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| PICTURES! |
[Feb. 25th, 2006|04:26 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  horny | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Jenn bouncing from video to video on the other computer | ] |
Well, finally I have some pics of me and one of the baby. Hopefully I'll get more soon. Anyway, enjoy.
I will try and be on sometime this week. Even if I don't update I will check my e-mail. I think i'm going to start a MySpace account too. If I do I will come back and post the address and add it to my navigation bar ^.^ Love you all, talk to you later.
Ziddy you still haven't called me :( poo..
Love you though bye bye
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| Hey everyone |
[Nov. 30th, 2005|02:34 pm] |
Just popping in after god knows how long to prove that I'm still alive.
Tristian's birthday was on the 19th, he turned 1.
Someone stole my dog :( ... but theres nothing I can do about that.. *sigh*.. anyway I don't really have time to mope here.. so I might try and log on later this week... (even though I always say that and then dissapear for the next 3 months)... |
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